weeds vs cobwebs


At dawn today, I have had a dream.
In my dream, I was heading to a christian church, wherein all the members/workers of that church were so busy cutting, trimming and clearing the bushes, weeds and grasses outside the church (in the front yard).
All of them are busy. I actually had a hard time reaching the door of that church due to the collective bodies of Christians outside busy cleaning.

When I got into the church, I needed to pass through a long alley like a maze. I noticed that the walls inside are full of dirt and cobwebs. So I asked myself,”How could they not notice the mess around here inside when inside the church is more important than outside (the front yard)?”

Wisdom: We may see the church as organize as it is in the surface, (looked kind, religious, gentle,prayerful, full of knowledge and wisdom, good at preaching or ministering, spirit-filled, highly spiritually gifted) so true…but we can not see the inside of one’s hearts.


Yom Kippur: the day of atonement


Today is the day of atonement (Yom-Kippur)–the holiest of all feast; the day of repentance; an everlasting sacrifice to the Lord; the day of sanctification, for the restoration of all things and the establishment of all things…the holiest day to the Lord, interceding for the nation and of Israel, and the day of salvation in the house of Israel.

READ: Leviticus 1:6; Hebrews 10:14; Numbers6:24-26; Hebrews 7; Zechariah 12:10


Prayer of Repentance (Personal sins)

Meditate: Psalms 24:3-5

– Clean hands…Psalms 15:1-5

– Pure heart …Psalms 51:7; Malachi 3:2-3; John 15:3

– Not lifted the soul to idols…1 Corinthians 6:9-11; Galatians 5:19-20; Hebrews 12:14

– He that is truthful…Revelation 21:8

Sins of the Tongue: (Prophecy – The Philippines will enter a Word-war)

“Speech is the index of the Mind/ Soul.” (Index- summary)

Matthew 12:34 “Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks.”

Proverbs 18:21 “Death and life is in the power of tongue; and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.”

James 3:6 “The tongue is a Fire, a world of iniquity”

James 3:8 “…a deadly weapon”

James 3:2 “For in many things we offend all. If any man offend not in words, the same is a perfect man, and able to bridle the whole body.”



  1. Lying tongueProv. 25:18; John 8:44; Proverbs 6:17; Rev. 21:8
  2. Flattering tongue – (to praise in a way that is no sincere) Psalms 5:9
  3. The proud tonguePsalms 12:3-4
  4. Over-used Tongue – (a person of many words) – Ecclesiastes 5:2-3
  5. A swift tongue: Why did God gave us 2 ears and 1 mouth? Prov. 18:13; James 1:19
  6. The Backbiting TongueProv 25:23; Romans 1:30; Prov 6:19
  7. The Tale-Bearing TongueProv 18:8; Lev 19:16; Romans 14:19; Phil 2:3
  8. The Cursing TongueRomans 3:13-14; Psalms 109: 17-18
  9. The Piercing TongueProv 12:18.. (hait na dila) –The Lord admonishes us… Colossians 4:6; Titus 2:8
  10. The Silent Tongue – The silent tongue is sinful because we have been commanded to witness for our Lord Jesus Christ. Acts 1:8. To be silent about Christ is to sin against Christ. Mark 8:38


Let us ask the Holy Spirit to remind us of the sins we have done against others, against ourselves, and against God, confess these sins and ask God for forgiveness.

For the sins of defiling God’s Name through money and material wealth

For the sins of greed, pride, disobedience, rebellion, lack of love and concern for others

For the sins of fear, unbelief, prayerlessness, complacency

For the sins of looking down to others and esteeming ourselves more holy and more righteous

For the sin of imprudence and passing judgment against others

For the sins of business dealings, of giving and taking bribes

For the sins of evil inclinations of the desires of the flesh, and improper thoughts

For the sins of disrespect against parents and against authorities, and against the law of the land

For the sins of disrespect against parents and against authorities, and against the law of the land


Psalms 139: 23-24 “Search me O God, and know my heart; Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there be any wicked ways in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”

(Credited to the body of Christ and Intercessors for the Philippines)


To God be the glory!




(Upon failure to steal any picture of my former coach to post here is this man who looks older than him. I hope he won’t kill me for this <chuckle>)

(Originally published in the Cascade magazine cy 2007; revised 2013 @ WordPress)

Half rotten eggs roll by and splash. They chase me. So cuddly. The puppies were all over spreading their cutest smile. It’s as if I’ll be playing Lizzie McGuirre. I doubt but promise not to write at my hectic schedule but my pen just pulled me up, said, “Come on in, start blowing me up!” to scream at everybody’s mad-full thought connected beyond differences and genuinely. Enough of melancholy. There’s enough closet to cater that.

Once, I’ve enter I allow myself quaff all possible perplexities, rendezvous of whether bliss and nightmare and of course, fun and excitement. We youth had that spirit—being ecstatic: to try something new and extraordinary. But said usually by mommies, “Okay…but I just don’t want to see you cry when you get nothing good at it.” Yeah! To try and be ready to win and win. If fail, who said unfair.

I’ve learned to love myself more at the eruption of million’s affection. I’ve learned to care more once touched by their sincere tap—silent yet real and felt. I’ve learn to trust myself as the crowds cheered—unaired amaze though influenced. I’ve learned to fight back as a call of duty. Having sides at least on the good is where I rest my feet defending undefeated and supposed triumph. We are not the tail but the head. All are leaders. A follower is an obvious instance. We have to deny nothing from our own existence but our cowardice from anything desirable of competing for. Grow up, stretch to reach on top. Develop, and then share. That would be the greatest achievement from your endeavour.

Learning across splattered inks or matrix of odds and evens takes time, energy, fear and anxiety. Well of course, the idea doesn’t focus on it constantly…all learning were. A pal said that the easiest way to learn is to let yourself surround with people smarter than you are. Why not? If you’re the most privileged thinker even a bogus pretender and the rest were mediocre at that fleeting, how could you learn or at least snatch something new? Same with certain chess guru that to be a grandmaster you’ll have to spend time, sweat, enough nerves, patience, focus, perseverance, commitment and other personal character will do the rest which will lead you to either glory or defeat. True to it that at first, he scared me maybe because his style of training is where I didn’t used to—to where I thought drags my courage and confidence worse. The course of everyday practice turns into usual almost and always bad. I could remember those defeated exercises that brought me home silent, exhausted and frustrated. So, I decided to glue myself at home and promised not to get back unless have my own tactics. And, that was the beginning of his smiles. I even no longer heard his usual “Unsa ka man oi!” every time I do the wrong moves of carelessness. To pay the price, I felt the gold medal I received from that tournament seemed heavier than the collective abstract sweat and headache I gained from the consecutive practice of losing. At last I rejoiced, “So, this is how it feels.”

Well, learning to correct my own presides after others did so. Learning from neither knowledge nor skills but the attitudes l haven’t notice all those past years adds my being. Hence, remind me of my own weaknesses that I have to deal with. Others are obvious and gutsy but more still to go waiting to be unravelled along with unexpected thorns and pebbles.

Plead not. We can’t assess our former foolishness if our will is ruled by our passion. We can’t learn from anything controlled by barriers of vice and lack of faith. However, privilege to choose, man’s fate can be drawn through his own idiosyncrasy. And somewhat, there’s so much thing we have to learn from our past experiences and to react is to laugh about them, celebrate each crazy unsatisfying decision making, enlighten the pessimistic feelings of distress that once was warm and glow. After all, being tired is not final and to rest doesn’t mean in stationary passive wander by extravagant spirits of lad and lass even at 60s. Truth is, I had just recovered out from one unfulfilled expectation. But I had learned my lesson. Not all desires munch at seconds or whatever wanted. Not always, not all at once and still not one at a time. It’s just that you have to appreciate the art of perfect timing and God alone knew when it will be better than men’s omniscience. Work hard while you pray.