Isaiah 29: 13 “The Lord says, ‘These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men.’ (They worship me in vain. Their teachings are but rules taught by men.)”
In the morning, I prayed in the spirit for two hours. In between, I paused to wait on God then asked Him in my own dialect to give me the discerning heart and to be able to interpret the unknown tongues I prayed and so it was. I was astonished that my prayer in the Spirit is totally opposite to what I was praying in my mind when while I paused in between, I can hear myself speaking in unknown tongues and after a pause, I could hear myself uttering a prayer in pure English. It was contrary to what my thoughts was praying and wanting to pray. Truly our spirit search our inner being and true needs. God knows the best for us. How could I have known that my spirit was so thankful to God? How could I have known that I did wrong, the reason I hear myself asking for an “apology…sorry…sorry Lord”? How could I have known that I need to worship the Lord more and more expressing my deepest gratitude and adoration first than jumping into praying for someone or asking for something for myself in my mind? If I was not able to pray in the spirit I could have not known all these.
I’dwanted to pray for my future because I have dreamed of a significant event regarding my career in the early morning. I wanted to know its meaning so then again I asked God to help me interpret my dream. Then I hear myself groaning, crying and wailing. I don’t know why. After that, I saw a vision of blood dropping and Jesus on the cross suffering. I saw His face full of blood with the crown of thorns on His head and His right arm and hand was suddenly focused on my gaze. A large nail was positioned on His palm so I cried out of horror when it was nailed on His palm. It seemed I felt His pain, His agony so I can’t stop crying and wailing.
Next vision was the earth. He demonstrates how and why He died for us. I cried bitterly and guilty because I had asked selfishly, seeking my own.
When I saw the vision, I learned that God wants to show us what and how He suffered for us when He died on the cross for our sins, to save us. He wants us to take the cross and follow Him, to share His suffering but that excludes our own selfish ways, ambition…He wants a total surrender. I already had seen the movie ‘Passion of Christ’. Honestly, I can’t endure watching the scene in which He was tortured. Nonetheless, the vision itself reminded me not to forget how He suffered much for us…for His love for us.
At the end, I asked Jesus to stop showing me the gory thing because I could endure no more to see it…One thing, Jesus doesn’t want us to pity ourselves. Self- pity is a sin.
So, do we have the right to say that we’re suffering much more than He had? Can any of us die for the sake of mankind, for its salvation, for paying the price,for its sin?
Our pain is like a pinch or a bite of an ant. Do we have the right to complain then?
Isaiah 29: 15 says, “You turn things upside down, as if the potter were thought to be like clay! Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, ‘He did not make me’? Can the pot say to the potter, ‘He knows nothing’?”
Romans 8: 18 – 27 Apostle Paul say, “I consider that our sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the first fruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weaknesses. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And He who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.”
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Another vision I saw is a golden stairway to heaven with a throne full of light then a blood from it descending. I saw the flag of China and America so I started praying for it. Finally, I saw the flag of the Philippines. I was afraid and don’t want to see the vision. The flag was being torn and burned and I saw a dirty pool of water with fetus swimming and jumping out of it. I could even see tadpoles and sperms. I really don’t know what it meant so I pray in the spirit and waited.
The greatest commandment and the heart of worship…
Mark 12: 30 say, “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.”
This week, I have encountered a very significant event. For the past years, I did not give much attention or importance in worship. I did not give much time and did not even give my heart into it. I simply used to be a church goer like I onlycould sing songs with Christian lyrics if I was in the church as of weekly routine and the rest of the entire week was spent with my work, my hobbies and going out to have fun like shopping.
What really is worshipping the Lord? Why do we need to offer worship to our Creator? Do we simply just worship Him once a week, like only on Sunday in the church service? If that is so, it’s like we’re not feeding much our soul and spiritual needs. It’ll become malnourished. Nevertheless, God created the world and everything in it for seven days. It was perfected for seven days. Seven is God’s perfect number not one or two so in the same way, we must pray and worship the Lord for seven days a week—that’s every day! Likewise, since we eat physical food every day, we must also eat spiritual food every day because we are spirit-man.
I wanted to talk with this significant event. It was when I was prompted by the Holy Spirit to sing and pray in the spirit inside the comfort room. It took two hours. At the near end of it, I was prompted to prostrate on the floor. At first, I was reluctant thinking the floor is not clean but when I saw a vision of myself doing the thing I was asked to do, I was compelled. My mind panicked. I was afraid to disobey the Holy Spirit’s prompting. So instead, I took a plastic stool and prostrate myself with my head on top of it. At that time, I was so afraid. I might grieve the Holy Spirit if I disobey. After that, I wailed for the reason I don’t know. It’s a continuous one and suddenly stopped; I felt relieve.
The following day, I was playing CD with devotional songs. While I was singing and praying both in the flesh and in the spirit, the Holy Spirit touched me; I cried and wailed for no reason. My mom then told me that I could have had closed the door or enter into my room so the neighborhood would not mind out from their curiosity since there were two cab driver who curiously stood at the gate. So I responded, “I was not able to stop the thing that was happening to me. I can’t help it.”I was thinking of the incident that happened inside the comfort room. If you’re prompted by the Holy Spirit to worship this and that way, you could no longer think of finding a comfortable place or else you would lose the privilege, opportunity and even the blessing.
My mom then insisted, “But they are unbelievers. They could not understand.” I knew that my mom was so mindful of the neighborhood.She wished I could have had enter into my room or locked the door in the living room so they could not hear me crying and singing. Honestly, many of us had never enter into the realm of worshiping the Lord in the beauty of holiness because we are so conscious of the time, our surrounding, the people around us, what they say, what we looked like when we lose our poise if we cried out all our emotions during a worship service inside the church and the chores like babysitting, cooking, mountains of laundry, homework that keeps spinning in our head that awaits to be done.The heart of worship is total surrender.
Isaiah 30: 16,18 says, “This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says: ‘In repentance and REST is your salvation, in QUIETNESS and trust is your strength, but you would have none it. Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who WAIT for Him.”
REST means SURRENDER; In QUIETNESS means WAITING ON GOD.
Colossians 4: 5 says, “Make the most of your chances to tell others the Good News. Be wise in all your contacts with them.” (Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity.)
Being wise in acting toward outsiders does not mean keeping in secret your way of worshipping as a believer of Christ if you’re just worrying of being their stumbling block.After all, worshipping the Lord does not limit to the physical act of singing, prostrating yourself, lifting up your hands to heaven, etc. but on how you live your life as a Christian, a believer of Christ.
PRAYER:Matthew 10: 28, 32, 33, 38, 39 say, “Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will also disown him before my Father in heaven. And anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.”